Letter #21

sooooo what a change we had last change. it was very difficult. but its over and now a new one!

so im hear with elder solano... from costa rica. this is his third change and seems really nice.

my last change was hard for several reasons... my comp was super prideful and always wanted to stay in peoples houses to waste time. i got after him a couple times and he would  get mad at me. "elder clark, you just dont understand yet."  i got so mad at him a couple times. but my last couple weeks i  wasnt with him because we always doing changes looking for people to interview. and i was with elder dubose from montana. he is a goofy stud and i learned a ton from his greeness. i want to be more green.  

also, i want to know the will of the lord... i want to do the exact things that he would do in every moment. i want to know where the "chosen people" are(escogidos).  because there are so many people that are ready but i cant find them. really i need to sanctify myself completely.  i want to be the missionary that god(and my mom) wants me to be. this change im going to try to read all of preach my gospel and all of the book of mormon.  i want to be a better missionary. i knew that god was putting me through the refiners fire but i didnt know that i would be in there so long.  im going to be honest but i need a lot of refining... especially from who i was before the mission.

we had a junta with our zone and it was so spiritually uplifting. and really i felt so good afterwards. we talked about love. and love for the lord. it was amazing. and i learned a ton. this change is going to be completely different im going to be searching for the voice of the lord and im going to be super obedient and because i love the lord im going to keep his commandments.

Mike thanks so much for your letter! its true...

im scared im going to be the same person when i get home and that is one thing i do not want to do!  but perfect love casteth out all fear. and "if you love me keep my commandments..."

one thing i love about the scriptures is that never says that we need to work long hours or work really hard to support your family... it only says "i the lord know that ye have need for all these things. more search primarily the kingdom of God and all these things WILL be added unto you."

i love you all so much and thanks for all your prayers for me and your support. i will be a better missionary every day so that i can have a wife that is 1. rock solid, unwavering testimony and 2.blistering, smoking, retina-searing hotness... also someone who is not my sister... HAAHAH  

i love you all so much and will keep you in my prayers

Letter #20

So i have no time to talk i actually have to go but ill just wanted to tell all of you how much i love you and miss you all.

i had the chance to go and see the butterflies in michoacan.  it was super neat but they were sleeping.

it was so cool to see all of you for christmas.

so i have been teaching in my sleep again. like when i was in the oil field i had dreams every night about work. now im teaching lessons hahah

we have changes next week so i dont kjnow when i will get a chance to write you all next.

i love you all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

can you send me some talks about depression and stress.

im having a hard time... :) keep me in your prayers.  

love Elder Clark